Christine Brown; Kody Brown; Meri Brown; Janelle Brown.Photo:TLC
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Kody Brownwants to focus his energy on moving forward in his relationships withhis three former wives.
TheSister Wivesstar, 55, tells PEOPLE that he’s on a “journey” of both “forgiveness” and “understanding” when it comes to his relationships withChristine,MeriandJanelle Brown, all of whom he separated from within a 14-month span.
“I’ve got to find that space of grace and love for myself,” Kody says as he admitted he wanted to “forgive” himself for “being angry about what has happened” and “move on.”
“It’s a journey that goes inward and it’s a journey that’s outward,” he explains of his ever-evolving relationship with each of his ex-wives. “You have to express forgiveness to the people you’ve been involved with. You have to express understanding and hope that at the end of an era for us as a family, we still have hope of a friendship and a loving or kind relationship with each other in the future because we’re bound forever through our kids.”
Indeed, the “experience has been painful,” he says of the end of three of his four spiritual unions, but it’s also been a “process” to get to more solid ground with his family.
“Really I just look forward to a future of a lot of forgiving and a lot of … just more understanding,” he adds.
Now, though,he feels like his “confidence is coming back,”as a “few things have happened recently that have really, I guess you could say, built my confidence back, because it destroys your confidence when you go through a divorce or a family breakup.”
‘Sister Wives’ stars Kody Brown and Meri Brown on ‘Good Morning America’ in 2011.Ida Mae Astute/Walt Disney Television via Getty
“We are not recovering from this,” he said. “I mean, it’s not clinical depression, but we’ve been a bit depressed about what the experience did. That’s an understatement. But we’ve been through a very hard experience and our reaction to it has changed us. We are not the same.”
He’s also admitted that he’s been sabotaging their relationship “out of frustration and anger.”
Janelle Brown, Kody Brown and Christine Brown in Las Vegas in 2013.Gabe Ginsberg/FilmMagic
Gabe Ginsberg/FilmMagic
“Meri’s situation [is] different than maybe Janelle or Christine’s. She hung on for a really long time," she continued. “So it’s a very different way that I look at that than I do maybe Janelle or Christine. But, yeah,I feel kind of abandoned.”
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source: people.com
